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A Very Thankful Moment

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone….near and far…I have so much to be thankful for this year and I want to thank all those who have had to put up with me and my illness. Especially my sons…I let myself become sicker than I needed to because I was too proud (or stubborn) to accept that I couldn’t take care of things alone. For that I am sorry that I caused a lot of worry amongst so many very wonderful people.

 

I’m also sorry to those who love me that I didn’t let know how sick I had become. I have always been an independent sort of person who doesn’t like not being a bother or burden. Silly I know but after all these years, it’s who I am. But I promise that I will try and do better in the sharing department even if it’s not all rainbows and sunshine.

I am thankful that the spirits that be have let me come this far and given me such wonderful gifts and blessings. I sometimes wonder if I am truly worthy of such blessings.

I am thankful for family…hopeful that the ties that bind us will be strong enough to endure the separations and hardships that many times come between us. My heart is now and forever shall be filled with only the best of thoughts and prayers for each and everyone.

I am thankful that my path brought me to a place where I have been given such wonderful endearing people to work with. I know some of you are here and I am forever grateful that you have allowed me to be a part of your lives. Forever grateful that you,all, have helped me show my sons how much more life is when you are surrounded by caring…nurturing people.

I am thankful for the wisdom to know that we, all, need to cherish each moment and each other…that we can learn so much and pass on so much if we keep an open heart and an open mind. Smiles are contagious…laughter healing…and reaching out will always be better than pushing away.

On this day of Thanksgiving…my hopes and prayers are that the world gets less violent…less greedy…less crazy and that all those I love close their eyes for a moment and think of me because I am sending you all warm hugs and soft kisses. Be well & stay safe

On This Day and All Days :

“ Mom’s Christmas Wish List “

I wanted to share with you the list I gave my sons this year for christmas…I’ve never written it out before…I usually have to deal with one or both of my boys following me around  asking questions and than forgetting what I said….lol…They are wonderful young men and I am truly blessed to have them…

                              ” The List”

# Would greatly desire a completely clean bathroom.You are both old enough to know what I mean…

 # Kitchen cabinets and shelves cleaned and straightened.(Liner paper changed is optional)

 #Both your rooms cleaned and organized….or at least let me see alittle more floor and be able to tell where your desks are…

 #A new hoodie jacket like my black one but without the hugh white paint stain on the sleeve.

 # New shoulders bag…preferably one that is waterproof so that when I walk to work in the rain everything doesn’t get soggy like they do now.

 #One of those electric face scrubbers…. I’m not getting any younger and my wrinkles could use a better scrubbing than my poor tired fingers have been doing…

 #Any kind of wooden chest… I think I might have an old pirate soul because I love the ones shaped like treasure chests…

 #I really don’t need any more stuffed white tigers but if you come across one that’s really cute and looks lonely…. well, what can I say? White Tigers need love too.

 #Ok, I’m still hooked on the International Coffees…but don’t go over board because it’s an easy get…I only like one flavor.

 # As with every Christmas, I would like a new picture of the two of you…clean up and smilin’ if possible.

 # You know I always need pens but am picky as to which ones…the challenge is for you to figure it out…

 # Because you seemed to forget…. my favorite color is dark blue…my favorite perfume is “Beautiful” (but it’s too expensive!) and the only candy that I like is milk chocolate…Please no jewelery 🙂

#As you already give time and “Secret Santa” things for those in need….A gift to me would be that you spend some time with each other..The older you,guys, get the busier you are and the less time there is for just having fun as brothers…time goes by so very fast…make good memories for later.

 # My extra special wish would be for each of you to write me a Christmas letter of sorts…telling me how you think this family thing is going so far and any ideas…insights…grievances…you might have…I want you to share a moment in written time with me…

 This is my Christmas list…. you complain and badger me because I don’t give you one every year…. this time I beat you to it and you can’t say I didn’t put enough “things” on it…You both, have known me long enough now to know that Christmas is not about getting a lot of presents…it’s about giving a lot of gifts from the heart…I would kind of like you to give from your head as well too.

This year has been a tough one for us and I know you have had to go through some scary times because of my health but you give me the courage and the stength to endure…Talking and listening have become such a wonderful part of our family…I love you with all my heart and soul…Love Mom

 

I was alittle surprised by how well my list was received by my sons then I remembered how important a letter my Dad once wrote to me was.He was not a writing sort of guy but for some reason, he sat down and wrote me a very sweet note about nothing really very important…I realized that other than little notes on the fridge,on white boards found around the house or the reminders I use to slip into their pockets when they were going thru rough times….I had never really written either of them a letter. Their baby books are filled with my prose but now….when they are dealing with the forces of the real world exploding around them and their safe haven being challenged from within…I hadn’t thought about putting more things down in writing for them…and yet here I was asking them to put things in writing for me…

How silly I was not to see it…This blog was their idea… I prided myself on the fact that I talk to my kids…about everything but I guess they wanted more the same as I did. When I share things with all of you….it resonates here as well. So I would ask you that you think about those loved ones in your life that maybe could use a few written words from you as well as those hugs and kisses we give them. Something that maybe a long time from now,they will pull out and re-read remembering you and your love for them.No matter how old I get…I am always amazed by how little I know and how much more I can learn. I prayer each night that the powers that be will grant me more time to keep learning and keep sharing with my sons and with you.

Happiest of Holidays from our home to yours….

                                          Stay safe…..Be well…